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Random thoughts of a lonely teenager
Jun 11, 2017 | Relationship | Vanshika Gupta
Random thoughts of a lonely teenager

FEELING OF NOT BEING GOOD ENOUGH...FEELING OF BEING ALONE!!!! THERE WAS NOTHING THAT I COULD HAVE THINK OR DONE ABOUT IT. THERE IS SOMETHING THAT WAS CONSTANTLY BOTHERING ME. FROM BEING SUPER CONFIDENT AND SUPER STRONG SUDDENLY I TURNED OUT TO BE SUPER DEPRESSED!!!

I WAS CONSTANTLY IN FIGHT WITH MY OWN SELF.

I WAS TRYING MY BEST TO PLAY VERY COOL BUT I KNEW ITS HELL HARD TO STAY CALM.

I JUST DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO STOP OVERTHINKING. I WAS COMPLETELY SHATTERED. EVERY PART OF MY BODY WANTED TO SHOUT OUT LOUD BUT COULDN'T SPEAK A SINGLE WORD. 'WHAT HAVE I DONE TO

DESERVE SOMETHING LIKE THIS' I WAS CONSTANTLY ASKING THIS QUESTION TO MYSELF.

OBVIOUSLY I KNEW I WAS ON WRONG TRACK.BUT I COULDN'T HELP MYSELF.

STANDING IN A GROUP STILL FEELING ALL ALONE.JUST WANTED TO HAVE SOMEONE TO TALK TO. IS IT WAS TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR??

ITS NOT BEING DESPERATE IT’S LIKE I WANTED TO FEEL LIKE BEING LOVED AND CARED. SOME HOURS OF HAPPINESS WAS TURNED OUT TO BE A COMPLETE SAD DAY!!!

AM I READY TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHO I KNEW COULD POSSIBLY HURT ME AS MUCH AS I WAS ALREADY BEEN HURT OR EVEN MORE THEN THAT...

WAS I STRONG ENOUGH TO STOP AT THAT POINT???

WAS I STRONG ENOUGH TO TAKE ANYTHING FORWARD???

WAS IT A PUNISHMENT?? FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE TO SOME PEOPLE ??? ALL THE QUESTIONS WAS RUNNING IN MY MIND.EACH QUESTION WAS KILLING ME.

SOMETIMES BEING ALONE IS THE WORST PART OF LIFE!!!
I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE FEW HOURS AGO I WAS VERY HAPPY AND SENSED A FEELING OF BEING WANTED!!! LIFE IS SO UNPREDICTABLE.

SUDDENLY EVERYTHING VANISHED????

AT THAT POINT OF TIME NOBODY COULD HAVE UNDERSTOOD ME!!!

I DAMNNN WANTED TO TALK TO SOMEONE. BUT I WAS UNABLE TO FIND ANY CONTACT NUMBER IN MY CONTACT LIST WHO COULD HAVE POSSIBLY UNDERSTOOD ME AND WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH!!!!!

MY MIND KEPT REMINDING FEW NAMES THAT I COULD HAVE POSSIBLY CONTACTED BUT WHAT I WILL SAY??

I DIDN'T KNOW WHY I CAN'T HAVE SOMEONE ON MY SIDE.

WHOSE PRIORITIES LIST BEGINS WITH ME.? WHO THINKS OF ME AS MUCH AS I DO FOR HIM.

I DONT KNOW WHY IT BOTHERED ME SO MUCH.

EVERYONE AROUND ME WAS CONVINCED THAT AM VERY HAPPY AND COOL WITH WHATEVER I HAVE.

NOBODY CAN HEAR WHAT MY HEART WAS SCREAMING............
MY MIND WAS FIGHTING WITH MY HEART... ITS A STRANGE FEELING...

THAT ANYONE DOESN'T WANT TO FEEL!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHOULD I JUST SAY WHAT I WANT TO???

OR JUST LET EVERYTHING GOES THE WAY IT IS GOING???

BUT CAN I HANDLE ONE MORE HEART BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S WASN'T LOVE AND I DEFINITELY KNEW THAT .BUT WHATEVER IT WAS IT WAS SOMETHING SPECIAL THAT I CANNOT EXPRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THOUGHTS OF CHANGING ME WERE CONSTANTLY ATTACKING ON MY MIND I JUST DIDN’T KNEW WHY I CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DO I REALLY HAD FEELINGS OR IT WAS JUST A DEPRESSION OF REJECTION???????

BEING REJECTED BY SOMEBODY LIKE HIM???

DOES HE EVEN WORTH MY THINKING???

1000s OF QUESTIONS AND I DIDN’T HAVE ANY ANSWER FOR ANY OF MY OWN QUESTIONS. A HARD PHASE IT WAS! WHAT HAPPENED AFTER THAT? WHAT WAS MY DECISION! READ MY NEXT ARTICLE TO READ MORE ABOUT HOW ALL OF US FEEL AT LEAST ONCE IN OUR LIFETIME!

SEE YOU SOON!

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